the voices in your head
years ago, i went to see a shaman for a soul retrieval.
i was generally skeptical about everything, including shamans, and i didn’t see how it was possible for a soul to be missing or to have missing pieces. but i went because on her website, she talked about feeling like something was missing.
i felt like something was missing, so i figured that at the very least, it would make a good story. plus, i was pretty comfortable with doing things that were out of the ordinary in the name of alternative healing. (i think my old coworkers still remember when i licked a paper towel every month and sent it to someone to diagnose and send me herbs and such back. i know my sister amy does. i suspect all her med school classmates do too.)
i remember two things from that session.
first, she told me that my family was known for its intellect but that i was going to find a way to work that included body & spirit.
the first part was true, which made me think “maybe there is something to this”. the second part gave me hope that i would find my way.
second, when she scanned my sixth chakra, she told me that the voices in my head had turned vicious.
that was also true. only i hadn’t even noticed. they had been there for so long that i had grown accustomed to them. they seemed normal and expected. i had somehow missed that over time, they had gone from critical to cruel to vicious.
when i look back, i think that was the first small step on my journey toward love & compassion.
there was something about having someone tell me that the voices in my head were vicious that helped me take a step back and realize that a) they were voices and not the whole truth and that b) something else might be possible.
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what a great story, elizabeth. thank you for sharing.
Interesting – I did not know about this, or I forgot the story.
I think I was going to call you and tell you afterward, because I was so fascinated by the intellect thing, but then I figured I knew what you’d say about a soul retrieval so I didn’t.