Photo by Elizabeth Halt
Photo by Elizabeth Halt

shifting beliefs

April 26, 2012

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as i was resting in child's pose on my bed in a hostel in marrakesh on the morning of my 35th birthday, one of the thoughts that crossed my mind was, "i wonder why people like me?" not in a "i wonder what it is" sort of way but in a "i can't imagine why they would" sort of way.

almost immediately, it was followed by the realization that it was actually an old thought and i don't wonder that anymore. i could see that i have a good heart and that people might like me. not that i think everyone likes me, or that i think everything about me is likable, just that i am starting to see the good in me too.

it was such a lovely thing to realize as i turned 35 that i cried a little. better late than never, i guess.

i hope you can see all the good in you.

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11 comments... (add a comment)

  1. tammy j

    a happy picture. a happy you.
    are you kidding?
    how can people n o t see the good in you!!!!
    an ephipany on your 35th!
    what you don’t realize…
    you’re still just a baby. lol.
    at least from my vantage point. just ask your
    folks.
    hugs,
    tammy j

  2. Lovely! Reading this warms my heart. Big love to you, dear Elizabeth.

  3. ah elizabeth, how I adore you! this picture fills me with joy. it sounds like there were so many facets of beauty to your fabulous birthday celebration and that is just music to my ears! (loving the striped sweater too!)

  4. i like you very much indeed!
    for your radiance illuminates my heart.
    you look so happy in this picture and i wish i could touch that wall.

  5. The fact that you even question that makes you more lovable. I just love reading your thoughts because they start to get mine moving in new directions too and that is a good thing.
    Love to both of you and enjoy #35!!

  6. steph

    Yes! What a beautiful moment!
    I love the sense of freedom I get when I realize that a thought I’m having is just a habit, not really something I think/believe any more. Even more so when it’s something that shows I’m having more kindness to myself.
    This reminds me of something my therapist told me fairly early on in my seeing her: Don’t believe everything you think. It’s nice to have the distance/perspective/awareness to realize that I don’t. :)

  7. elk

    a beauty filled soul you are ,,may this be the very best year for you !!

  8. Leone

    How could anyone not like you when you have such a loving relationship with Altas. That tells it all!
    Thank you for sharing this, I think the same about myself – food for thought.

  9. I’ve realized I missed reading your blog posts, E, for touching posts such as this warm my heart. I’m glad you had a wonderful birthday and realized just how likable you really are.

  10. Kirsten

    I struggle with this. I often wonder why, or even if, people like me. Mostly I think they possibly couldn’t. I know I’m a good person but I am very, hmmm, opinionated. I think most do not appreciate that. I am so proud of you for moving past that & wondering what’s not to like? Elizabeth, you are amazing!

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