Photo by Elizabeth Halt
Photo by Elizabeth Halt

blowing an ice crystal wish into the blue & grey raindrop air

December 25, 2011

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i must confess that i am feeling extraordinarily lonely today. though it sounds somewhat paradoxical, it has nothing to do with being alone, and nothing to do with being lonely, and nothing to do with anything in this moment at all.

but it reminded me that while the holiday season can be merry and joyous and festive, it can also be lonely and sad, whether you are on your own, or with a few loved ones, or surrounded by a roomful of people.

my wish for you today, if you need or want it, is that you are filled to the brim with a sense of belonging, with the knowledge that you are loved and appreciated and wanted, exactly as you are, right now, in this moment.

18 comments... (add a comment)

  1. Marcie

    It really is amazing how one can feel so lonely in the midst of so many people. What a beautiful..honest..vulnerable post. Hope your holiday has been merry and bright!

  2. elizabeth @ retinal perspectives

    p.s. in case you are feeling so moved, i want to note that there is no need to offer advice on how to ease my sadness, though the love & care behind it is appreciated. tears are healing. old patterns are shifting. all is well.

  3. Jen t

    Love to you today, lib!

  4. elk

    thank you ..honesty is refreshing among the trapping of holiday .. your words speak so clear

  5. Elizabeth, I know exactly what you mean. Thank you for your wish, and I wish the same for you. Hugs.

  6. me too. so happy to hear i’m not alone. i’m so not a fan of the holidays.
    big hugs to you. <3

  7. Thank you for your wish. Unfortunately, sometimes it is difficult to be fulfilled.

  8. tammy

    soft velvet ears are the best for catching tears.
    i read once in a book whose title is long forgotten…
    “there is great beauty in saddness.”
    odd. yet oddly comforting.
    love you,
    tammy j

  9. So true about the lonely feeling. Thank you for your wishes, and sending love and hugs.

  10. Helen

    love you! and i was thinking about you yesterday.

  11. Christmas Day has flown past. Just now I have a quiet moment between bouts of after-Christmas sale shopping. I wanted to stop by and wish you all the joys of the season. As the quiet week approaches, may you find time to do all the things you most love. May you know, each day, how very blessed and loved you are. Happy Holidays, friend. ~ Relyn

  12. elizabeth @ retinal perspectives

    @relyn: happy holidays to you!
    @helen: i saw that you called! i will call you tonight. :)
    @jenia: {hugs}
    @tammy: velvety ears really are the best for all sorts of things! that quote is oddly comforting. love it.
    @jerry: i know. i wish it weren’t, but i definitely know that it is.
    @tami: you are not alone. sending love to you today.
    @gayle: sending a huge hug back. i need to stop by – somehow i have missed your blog lately.
    @marcie: so amazing! clearly it is an inside job.
    @elk: thank you.
    @jen: love you too! i hope you guys had a lovely christmas!

  13. I get it and love that you are telling it like it is. Hugs to you and your sweet boy.

  14. I was feeling quite lonely this morning but now less so. It always helps to have someone recognise and articulate a feeling as you have done so beautifully. Thank you and all the best for the holiday season!

  15. What a beautiful wish, Elizabeth! Thank you!
    Sending you and Atlas big hugs and lots of love!

  16. Amy

    Hi Lib – I have moments of sadness during the holidays – often when I’m feeling wistful for past days. We all love you. :)

  17. elizabeth – i know the truth of these words as well and i thank you for writing them. hugs to you and atlas. xoxo

  18. I know I don’t come around enough, and I don’t know you very well, but the little things that I do know about you make me feel like I have a twin in this world.
    I’m glad you are out there. :)

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